Life, Later On

I was at a wedding this weekend.  Ther sermon talked all about two people getting married and creating offspring.  The toasts and much of the talk of the evening had to do with this.  While listening to all of this I just started to think that I will never have that.  The only question is,  is that because I don’t want it or that I can’t have it because I can’t find anybody near what would be necessary for that to happen?

Both options are quite plausible.  I don’t think I could be a housewife.  I don’t know how women, because women are generally the ones who do this, can stay home to cook and clean.  I’d have to have a career.  I don’t think sitting at home all day caring for all these other people with little time for myself would be very fulfilling.  Even if I did have a career, I don’t know that I would be able to put everydboy before it.  If I was offered to move to pursue my career, to move higher up in whatever I end up doing, I don’t know for sure that I could stay put for the betterment of the whole unit.  On the other hand, maybe I’m just creating excuses for not being able to have this becasue I’ve yet to find anything vaguely familiar to anything I want.  My needs are specific, but they’re so general at the same time, yet I can’t seem to be able to check even one thing off the list with anyone.  Maybe, I’m just making excuses so I can turn down any semblance of commitment.